In Jr High,
I had a very strict dress code. It was almost like a uniform. Having to pick
what to wear every day was not a huge issue. When I moved up to the high school
I got to wear whatever I wanted to, which included tee shirts and ripped jeans!
The excitement that I lived through was unbelievable, but making decisions is a
major part of our lives.
Earlier
this month I was watching a different interpretation of the Biblical story of
Joseph and his dreams. This particular version made me realize something I
hadn't seen when I was part of my high school production of "Joseph And
The Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat." Heavenly Father has a plan for us.
Everyone has a purpose in life and something they are meant to do. None of us
know what it is or how we will achieve it.
As my high
school days concluded, I am forced to move on and start a new life. This time I
will be attending a different school with all new people. It's incredible to
think how much has changed since I was a
little seventh grader. Currently I am enrolled at the Community College, and
everything seemed to be going my way.
Making the decision to attend the Community College was very difficult
for me because ever since I can remember, I always wanted to attend the big
University in the state. Slowly through my high school years I decided that I
was going to study music education. I
have loved music since I was little. The first instrument I played was a small
xylophone when I was in kindergarten. I used to be in my middle school's choir,
but then I switched to the band. Finding myself through music was my main
priority. I had chosen my major (Music) and taking as many instrumental music classes
as I could. Deep down inside something isn't quite complete. It was as if there
was a hole waiting to be complete. I had mentioned to my mom that I really
missed being in choir and singing.
I've had
the opportunity to experience different faith communities and learn about how
their beliefs are similar to mine. I strongly feel like this has been one of
the most nourishing experiences of my life because its allowed me to grow in my
own faith and beliefs. Unfortunately I still feel like I need to find myself.
Living in the beautiful state of Utah, with many of my friends deciding to go
on their Missions and graduating from Seminary, I talked with several of my
friends about the possibility of taking Religious classes in college. At first
I was really shy about it and didn't want to draw too much attention to it, but
as the enrolling period is nearing to an end I've decided I wanted to take an
LDS Institute class to see what it was like and to help my growth. After
hearing many testimonies of my friends and classmates, I decided I was going to
sign up for Institute.
Today I was
looking at the registration page for the Institute near me and I found the
Biblical class I wanted. As I kept scrolling down the page there was a
non-auditioned choir! It seemed to me that I was getting closer to going back
to singing. In my church, one of the things I most enjoy is singing and
praising. After looking at the two classes I wanted to take, I had to find the
one that was best fitting to my schedule and would allow for work and growth.
Unfortunately for me, I have to find a different Biblical class but the Choir
class is within the times I can fit into my schedule!
I got
really excited to know that I have the opportunity to sing in praise, but I
still havent told my mom or really anyone besides two of my closest friends. I
know that since I am not LDS there will be some struggles I will face but at
the moment I am looking forward to the opportunities that I can have. I know
that Heavenly Father has a plan for all of us and He knows what He wants me to
do with my life. I am really excited to see where He takes me on these next two
years.
Sometimes I
think back at my middle school years and I miss the decisions I had to make.
Stalking the guy you like for the sake of being noticed was not the best idea I
ever had. In fact, most of the decisions I made in middle school weren't very
smart but I do not regret them. Every choice I've made and all the forks in the
road I've had to face are part of Heavenly Father's plan for me. I do not wish
to go back and change all the mistakes I made. Great memories have occurred
from my choices and actions. I hope that in the future, I am able to continue
living like this. I love my life and I love the experiences I've gotten to have
because of the choices I've made.
