MAKING DECISIONS

In Jr High, I had a very strict dress code. It was almost like a uniform. Having to pick what to wear every day was not a huge issue. When I moved up to the high school I got to wear whatever I wanted to, which included tee shirts and ripped jeans! The excitement that I lived through was unbelievable, but making decisions is a major part of our lives.

Earlier this month I was watching a different interpretation of the Biblical story of Joseph and his dreams. This particular version made me realize something I hadn't seen when I was part of my high school production of "Joseph And The Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat." Heavenly Father has a plan for us. Everyone has a purpose in life and something they are meant to do. None of us know what it is or how we will achieve it. 

As my high school days concluded, I am forced to move on and start a new life. This time I will be attending a different school with all new people. It's incredible to think how much has changed  since I was a little seventh grader. Currently I am enrolled at the Community College, and everything seemed to be going my way.  Making the decision to attend the Community College was very difficult for me because ever since I can remember, I always wanted to attend the big University in the state. Slowly through my high school years I decided that I was  going to study music education. I have loved music since I was little. The first instrument I played was a small xylophone when I was in kindergarten. I used to be in my middle school's choir, but then I switched to the band. Finding myself through music was my main priority. I had chosen my major (Music) and taking as many instrumental music classes as I could. Deep down inside something isn't quite complete. It was as if there was a hole waiting to be complete. I had mentioned to my mom that I really missed being in choir and singing.

I've had the opportunity to experience different faith communities and learn about how their beliefs are similar to mine. I strongly feel like this has been one of the most nourishing experiences of my life because its allowed me to grow in my own faith and beliefs. Unfortunately I still feel like I need to find myself. Living in the beautiful state of Utah, with many of my friends deciding to go on their Missions and graduating from Seminary, I talked with several of my friends about the possibility of taking Religious classes in college. At first I was really shy about it and didn't want to draw too much attention to it, but as the enrolling period is nearing to an end I've decided I wanted to take an LDS Institute class to see what it was like and to help my growth. After hearing many testimonies of my friends and classmates, I decided I was going to sign up for Institute.

Today I was looking at the registration page for the Institute near me and I found the Biblical class I wanted. As I kept scrolling down the page there was a non-auditioned choir! It seemed to me that I was getting closer to going back to singing. In my church, one of the things I most enjoy is singing and praising. After looking at the two classes I wanted to take, I had to find the one that was best fitting to my schedule and would allow for work and growth. Unfortunately for me, I have to find a different Biblical class but the Choir class is within the times I can fit into my schedule!

I got really excited to know that I have the opportunity to sing in praise, but I still havent told my mom or really anyone besides two of my closest friends. I know that since I am not LDS there will be some struggles I will face but at the moment I am looking forward to the opportunities that I can have. I know that Heavenly Father has a plan for all of us and He knows what He wants me to do with my life. I am really excited to see where He takes me on these next two years.

Sometimes I think back at my middle school years and I miss the decisions I had to make. Stalking the guy you like for the sake of being noticed was not the best idea I ever had. In fact, most of the decisions I made in middle school weren't very smart but I do not regret them. Every choice I've made and all the forks in the road I've had to face are part of Heavenly Father's plan for me. I do not wish to go back and change all the mistakes I made. Great memories have occurred from my choices and actions. I hope that in the future, I am able to continue living like this. I love my life and I love the experiences I've gotten to have because of the choices I've made.